miércoles, 8 de diciembre de 2010

Learned

Final Journal
Through the process of taking all these pictures based on certain themes, I learned to see the world in a different way that allows me to created different concepts of my surroundings. To be the witness of all that is going on around us can be a privilege because we never know which will be the impact those experiences to us. Besides, to be witnesses makes us responsible to describe, and analyze a situation or object. But, to be a witness is also becoming someone who transmit a message of truth. Studying all about photography, specifically its theory makes me consider myself more sensitive and perceptible now. To see photographically is like getting a quality that makes us conceptualize the world from another perspective, so that help us to create a better critical thinking about daily life. To see photographically is like to gain a supernatural power because now all my senses are more alerted and tuned; all my whole being is more conscious about each feeling, or sensation. Likewise, through the study of photography I had learned to aestheticize visually the ugliness, those things that are framed, and nobody wants to see so. Now, I can understand what is behind those things that with just a glimpse do not make sense. 
On the other hand, I did not only take the role of witness, also took myself into the frame to be part of the photography message. I learned how a person can borrow the identity of another culture to be part of it, and then represent him or herself from another perspective. I found myself really connect with the portraits and what they represent. Therefore, they lead us to explore into of our personalities, and then to have an excuse to represent ourselves from different dimensions. Finally, I consider that photography provide a better understanding and meaning of culture and society. Being both too complex, culture and society need something that show us the truth in a “Digestible way” (Herbert, 7), and it is through the photography.

lunes, 6 de diciembre de 2010

"Literally Speaking"


Photo Journal No. 4
            A multitude of people are claiming freedom, peace, and respect for life. It is the common image of a march of peace in Bogota, Colombia. When people ask me, “Where are you from?”, I proudly answer Colombia, then they frown and say, “Oh cocaine”, “drug cartels”, “Pablo Escobar”, or ”It is dangerous there, right?”. In many respects, I can always answer “Yes, we are the number one cocaine producers around the world, but we are also one of the top five exporters of coffee, flowers, and emerald…. Of course, my country is as dangerous as any other place in the world.” For many years, my country has been flagellated for a huge dire of violent acts such as car bombs, explosives, murder, terrorist attacks and kidnapping of people.
The most painful of those things have been the kidnapping which has cost hundreds of innocents’ freedom.  Therefore, people in my country are getting together to complain against those who keep these martyrs in captivity. This image frame a street of Bogota crowded with people, all of them dressed with white t-shirt, and a yellow, blue, and red Colombian flags. They just transmit hope with screams of “Freedom to them”, and, “It is time…United for freedom of ALL hijacked.” They want to be heard, and let their relatives know that they are not alone. Just in this moment people in my country forget about status, religion, and political parties because it is only one cause, one scream, and one voice. Holding the pictures of the person they are missing: mothers, fathers, wife, children, and friends pray together for the soon liberation of their relatives. These rebels walk miles and whole hours, and in the air you can hear the clamor of freedom; meanwhile, in the depths of the Colombian jungle are the captives; chained, wounded, abused, whipped dead or alive. One day, these women and men were walking freely, now they have to resign to read letters, or hear messages of their relatives through the radio stations.
Thus, the martyrs pass day after day, year after year, counting hours and minutes, waiting for a rescue, or their liberation. Their bodies are suffering the most dangerous illness, and they are healed in precarious ways ironically by real doctors who one day decided to become part of the subversive groups, or better called “guerrillas.” They wanted to follow the idea of the revolution. The prisoners send survival messages to their families, in these videos where the abandonment is evident, they should tell to their families how they are, but behind them are the “guerrilleros” supervising what they should say. While their families walk for them in freedom clamor, as this picture illustrates, they are forced to walk through the jungle for hours, even whole days, and weeks. And, the hope stays there, in a branch where they mark with little lines day after day as making a calendar, to do not forget how many days of their life were stolen. But, for many of these people their live will finish there, in the middle of nothing without any right to be buried honorably.  
I am pretty sure that not all amount of people walking there have somebody in captivity, but those who do not have it, they are supporting, and expressing their solidarity to those who are passing through all the painful feeling that is caused for the absence of the member of the family. I had the opportunity to be in one of these marches a couple years ago when I did a documentary for my Graphic Audiovisual class, and it was very touching to me. I put my feet in their shoes, and for one minute I transported myself to those isolated places where the prisoners were, and I started to imagine how they feel. Now, this image just make me feel the same thing, I close my eyes, and clearly a can hear all the voices claim, “No more murders”, “No more violence”, “No more lies”, “No more kidnappings”, and “No more FARC” (FARC, Revolutionary Armed Forces of Colombia).
            Contradictorily, what this picture shows, make me think about the result of this entire event afterwards. An immediate liberation would be ideal, but very unlikely. So, what they are pursuing through this march? I consider that they are trying to send a message to all of the leftist Paramilitary groups in Colombia. The former president of Colombia, Alvaro Uribe, had a personal goal to rid this beautiful country of all people who did not believe in a free society. President Uribe’s father was killed by acts of violence that these horrible groups inflict on their own countrymen. When the president of your country is spearheading a campaign to rid the country of these types of acts it makes it very simple to get out and support him. Even though, the President tried to help to the liberation, the guerrillas would not obey the law, thus it creates a long and complicated process for liberation.
            Once you pull yourself out of the situations at hand in the photo you also see beautiful green majestic mountains in the distance. The mountains are breath taking. When I see them I think of sitting on top of them looking down at the city and being able to see everything that is going on for miles. I can smell the peace, the freedom, and  the hope. The photo also shows that Colombia has modern architecture. Many Americans have a twisted concept of South America because of the lack of traveling there and movies, but many people think that we live in huts in the jungle without running water and the everyday necessities. When they come to realize in the photo that skyscrapers, buses, trains, taxi and many other forms of public transportation are just another piece of life in Colombia, they begin to realize that we are not as different as some people depict.
            The last but not least portion to this photo is that it is my Country of birth. It is made up of great men and women who have dreams and ambitions to be great. When I see the people come together to rid violence in the country it sends a clear message to other countries. Come to Colombia and see that we are great open hearted people just like you with a lot of history and culture. To find out what Colombia really has to offer get a plane ticket and come see for yourself the hospitality of the wonderful Colombian people. At first the glance, this photo is just a crowd of people in a larger city; however, it has whole history behind that.





The Performing "I"

Photo Journal No. 3
            I am a very active person; therefore, I cataloged myself as a morning person. I try to be what I am during every moment that I have or experience, without any pretense of being what I am not. The moments that I can be myself completely are the ones where I feel very confident with my surroundings. Besides, I represent myself in a lot of ways: cooking, exercising, dancing, making people laugh, breaking rules a little bit, not doing conventional things, being very honest, talking with my heavy accent, struggling for my goals, being very strong with the thing that I should live by, loving dog and cats, and being authentic.
As human beings, we perform every time to be accepted in certain parts of the society, and then interact much better with people that is part of that circle. Daily, I perform the role of student and wife. Those are the main roles that I play with, but eventually I perform the role as a friend, daughter, sister, and neighbor. Absolutely, they have conflict between each other because I should perform each of those very different; therefore, I change my behavior in each of those roles. It creates disadvantages when I want to show really who I am, consequently I have to pretend to be or feel what I am not. In the other hand, I suppose that they support each other as well because when I should to take a role in certain situation, it helps me to get what I want, or to be involved where, or with who I desire to be with. Moreover, they interact with each other because they act simultaneously most of the time. Thus, I consider that everybody is an actor by nature.
My identity as a Gina Goff is physically defined because I was born with characteristics that evidently show my sex; female. However, my identity had also been constructed because my gender as woman makes me developed certain ways of thinking and behaving that I was not born with, and it makes me acquire what the society offers to me to develop my identity.




"Bearing Witness"





Photo Journal No. 2
            The second part of my journal I chose a skate park because it has a lot of magic to discover, a lot of adrenaline. Moreover, it is a place with a lot of things to explore photographically. This time I decide to be focused in the “decisive moment” that Cartier-Bresson was focused as well. Essentially, I was interested in the decisive moment because it is the moment where the main point of the event should be frozen in order to be remembered. The viewer always wants to see those specific moments that are unique. They want to receive the message that the photograph’s composition has for them. Every event has decisive moments; however, we as a witness, are who decide what and why certain instants are the decisive moment. In other words, we decide how to capture the context of the event that we are seeing, and then shoot the decisive moment that we believe is going to show the context clearly. The park that I visited was full of these important moments, all these guys just breathe adrenaline. Therefore, I knew that this adrenaline should be captured to show the context of these sorts of places; therefore, I shot the boys tricks, jumps, falls, courage, no fear, and discipline. Resnais did a great job approaching us to the real faces of the Nazi ideology, during and after the war. He revealed all the dire things that prisoners were exposed by. In fact, he did not measure the amount of strong content that those images have, but it was his idea at the moment of acquiring the concept of decisive moment. In between of these shocking images, he showed the same places, during and after the issue. Therefore, it makes us bring to our mind the image of the tortuous past within the peaceful present’s images that are still painful. Finally, I consider that it was done with objectivity because he attempted to reveal the reality that was hidden; moreover, he was trying to create a reflection from all these events on the viewer.

"Sublimation"

Photo Journal No. 1
A few years ago, when I was in the university in my country, I had a photography class, and it was very interesting. I learned basic things about photography. I have to recognize that I do not see photographically at all, but sometimes I see things that I consider should be framed in a picture somehow, then I would like to get this ability. Also, I feel addictive to the camera when I have one in my hands, and I believe certain pictures that I take are pretty good obviously in an amateur way. Those times where I see something that generate me photography’s idea, I observe what I want to transmit shooting that specific thing, and why I feel it should be shooting? It is because I think it has to be remarkable, also it transmits a message or feeling, and because has something to say.
To see photographically means to build in our mind the picture that we desire to get: the color, shape, composition, and contrast. In my opinion, it is a skill not easy to acquire, it requires practice, time, and a lot of creativity. For example, I was a model in my country, before of having a photo shoot I already had seen what I wanted in my mind, but in a model role. Therefore, when I am behind of the camera I just imagine how I can freeze the things that I consider interested to expose. In fact, a lot of things make me see photographically such as nature, people, sports, entertainment activities, night life, woman, and culture. And personally, I do not have a specific moment to feel it, I do not know if it has to have it. Two of my friends are photographers, and they definitely have the ability to see photographically. Finally, I conclude that photography vision could be beneficial in order to show expose reality, feelings or messages. It could be detrimental when the photographer wants to expose beyond of the reality creating a bad effect on the viewer, and when the photographer’s purpose is to create sensationalism as well.